Joybo-

I continue to think about this topic. Thank you for leading it.

I would like to think (=hope?) that the things I hope for have some reasonable possibility of coming into being, either through my own efforts, or because by getting out of the way I can allow life's processes to offer new possibilities.

I saw your comment elsewhere about pain:
"I guess 11 would be death.
Which (I hope) takes us back to Zero?"

I also have that hope, the hope that the time will come when I will cease trying to solve the problem of Me. (Meanwhile I'm grateful to have the opportunity to try...and the scenery is wonderful.)