I'm coming in very late to this thread, but I'm so grateful I found it. Post cancer treatment has been more difficult emotionally for me than going through the treatment itself. I was told how "lucky" I was because I was "only" 1B ER/PR+ HER2- in both breasts with very low oncotype scores. I had a double mastectomy in Oct '23, had a second surgery Nov '23 because they didn't get clear margins. went to three radiation oncologists who all gave me different info (ended up forgoing radiation), and spent countless hours on the internet reading every medical article I could find that looked remotely like my situation. I fought with doctors to get things done, had to show a brave face to my family, and, sometimes, had get angry to just to keep going. The issue is, now that's its "done" I don't feel okay. I don't feel like my pre-BC self. I feel like I've been in fight or flight mode for so long I don't know how to turn it off. And between the Tamoxifen turning me into a crazy person with constant hot flashes, not being able to exercise for almost 8 months due to surgeries, and people around me thinking I should just be done and over it...it has been difficult to be positive. We also sold our home and are moving to another city which brings up its own stressors - packing up, starting over, finding a new job, new doctors, etc. This past week I felt like I hit a low point. Today I made a conscious effort that I was going to start trying to moving toward a more positive me - I can finally exercise, I'm trying to eat better, and I found this support group. Reading your posts made me feel a lot less crazy and more normal. I am very appreciative of that. Thank you for sharing your stories.