asutton0144,
Go ahead and have a good cry! It is perfectly understandable that you would want to do that. Get it out of your system. I know I had myself a few when I found out I had pancreatic cancer & then found out it was stage IV not I! Find yourself a good oncologist. Try using Pan Can network too! They have helpful people to talk to & information you will use. It will be 2 years since my diagnosis/prognosis, and I am so thankful for still being here. If you believe in prayer, then ask for that!