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Need help! Depression and anxiety

Depression & Anxiety | Last Active: Jan 20 4:09pm | Replies (227)

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My doctors have in their notes the labels of intractable pain and treatment resistant depression and pain, @stw. That's why they recommended ECT, and I was interviewed and approved for it. I spent a lot of energy toward making that happen, but just before I scheduled my first appointment for treatment my wife spoke up and told me that she didn't want me to do it. That was 5 years ago. At the time I was pretty much non-functional because of depression and suicidal ideation that I'd been working on with therapy and medication for more than 10 years and was too overwhelmed to fight against her objections and and to wrap up the details of housing and final plans. So I called the university hospital and cancelled my treatment. There will always be the regret that I didn't follow through, and wonder if ECT would have given me my life back. I guess I'll never know.


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I know it helps some people and the very first time I did it. It helped a little but in 4 months I was back to pretty much non-functional. Over the years I have had 3 different series totaling 30 different treatments. Now they just put tiny electrodes on your head and can target areas better. My 1st Series was over 20 years ago and it looked like I had metal coke cans on either side of my head. ( just like One flew over the Cuckoo’s Nest) it was mortifying. AlL 3 series came with really bad short term memory loss - didn’t recognize even my family. However that does get much better within a week or two. The 1st one left me with horrible long term memory! I believe the way they do it know does affect that as bad. Between the depression itself, the medications and the ECT’s there is so much I don’t remember. Huge chunks are missing. The worst is I don’t remember a lot of my daughter growing up. This was also why I finally agreed to try the MAOI. I was pretty much out of options and I had taken most Of the medications out there in my 36 years of dealing with this. ECT does help some people but I was not one of them. The electrodes they use now do not Usually have the long term memory loss. I am so glad my doctor wanted me to try the MAOIs. I was very frightened to take the them but finally I agreed to take it 5 years ago, I started them on Valentines Day. I have been well ever since. The MAOIs gave me my life back!! Not many Drs will prescribe them today. I would think about finding a Dr that will prescribe them. But the Dr needs to really know about them. You have to adhere to food and medication rules or they can be potentially fatal. That scared me to death but I have no problem following that Cuz it gave me my life back! I had finally found an excellent and a very medication knowledgeable psychiatrist. Also he is very kind and compassionate. Rare- at least compared to the other psychiatrists I had seen. I saw him for about 6 years and he exhausted Pretty much everything before he suggested trying those.