Many times the reason meds don't work for people is because they have Bipolar Disorder but have not been diagnosed yet, that is what happened to me. I must have gone through 30 meds. before I was diagnosed. Usually when you have Bipolar Disorder you need a cocktail of meds. to get better. I know that sounds awful but that's just the way it is. I've been on up to four meds at a time in the past, right now I'm on three. I'm not happy about it but I've learned to accept it. I can't help that I got some lousy genes along the way.
I have so many other family members that also have mental illnesses. Siblings, a parent, cousins, aunts and uncles. It is very prevalent in my family. I've lost a brother and six cousins. I have 35 cousins and many of them have some sort of mental illness, and it doesn't stop there, many of us have children with mental illnesses. We've passed these bad genes to the next generation!

I know how you feel about passing the bad genes .It was passed to me and i passed it to my son and he passed it to his to daughters.
My started at age 8 wow ya 8 years old I remember being now at it is called short of breath Then the feeling of hot things feeling like fear going thru my body/ Now looking back on my teen years i acted out had angry angry out burst.Was mean and nasty it would change in a flash.but back in the 60"s and 70"s.Doctors didn"t know much and i feel that way today about them. i have very bad bad panic attacks and scared of everything since i was little. I have asked was or am i Bipolar because of all the angry out burst i had and had,Up Till they put me on the xanax.i was on 2mgs in the am.My mornings are very bad.This new N/p/ that has to look in her books all the time for answers is for the birds.I asked her have you ever had these attacks ? No she said do you know i feel when i have them no she said only what i learned in school/Then how Can you sit there and tell me how i should feel!!!!! she says no i have to read it.Then how can you help me.She told me to listen to her. And not comment on what she says.Just do as i say.I:am so angry with her i"m worse after i leave her. She has me down to 1mg Xanax 3 times a day.for 14-years i was on 4 times a day there were many times i didn"t have to take the 4th. But the other doctor really understood how bad i was and has been,But he moved away and i"m trying to find him/He new what i was going thru because he had many people in his family that had mental illness. Thats what i was told i have. I have tried other doctors for physic.but no luck. I"am affaird of everything . will tell more as i get going.on this new page with everyone.But i will tell you i was scared when i was 8 scared about what was going to happen to me in an hour i even thought what i was gonna be like as i got older. i worried about everything from toe nails hurting to if i couldnt sneeze i went right into a an attack.
They have been very much controled on the Xanax i have not needed to in crease the dose. I"m doing fine where i"am. my question is do i have to leave state and start over to get someone to listen to me. About how every thing i fear. today i was at my grandson birthday party. i went into the pool because i love playing with my grandchildren I asked leann. what did you put into the pool.? she said yesterday some kinda of bleach made for litttle pools and said they couldnt go in it for 30mins after. i went in today and when she said that the fear came over me like a ton of brinks..OH MY whats gonna happen to me being in this pool am i going to be fine.and boom i was in full panic attack/ Now what do i do. someone please tell me. i"m so confused. need im put so bad please help Thank You Kellie.

Are you sure you don't have Bipolar Disorder? I can remember in grade school feeling out of place with some of the other kids like I just didn't belong, although I did make some lifelong friends in grade school. I can remember my depression and anxiety really started when I was 22 years old although I had some depression in my teen years. I had no idea what was wrong with me. My mother told me that I was a difficult child.
It took me years to get the proper diagnosis. I'm still struggling with Meds. and I'm not sure if we'll ever get it right. I have the good fortune to see a doctor at the Bipolar Clinic in Boston. I'm sorry but I don't have any suggestions about why you are so fearful. I noticed in myself as I got older I became afraid of more things. I was never afraid of anything therefore I think it is a side effect of one of the Meds. I'm on.
Anyway good luck and I hope someone on here has an answer for you.