I hope you will be able to learn to live with your pain. It's horrible to live with sadness and anxiety. Search for peace of mind in some way. Do you work? If not, maybe try some volunteer work in a hospital, school, someplace for the needy, in the library reading to the children. If you like creative work, try getting into that ..... paint, garden, do Yoga, join a fitness club, join a walking club, a book club and by all means, if you don't have a dog, get yourself one. Keep in touch here and hopefully we can come up with something that will fit your personality. Don't give up! Hugs, Liz