My thanks to everyone who responded to my post = you have all helped me, especially mentally and emotionally = as I tell everyone, I too, have chronic pain for the last 19 years which is so difficult and painful that I only get out of bed and leave my house to go to my doctor's appointment....however, this pain is nothing compared to the pain I feel when I look at my 44 year old son who is basically not living at all..........his life, which was full of dedication to his job and employer and his love of bowling ended at 34 years old....he was the first junior to bowl a perfect game, bowled many perfect games (I am ashamed to say I don't remember how many, however, I think the number is approximately 25+) by the time he was 25 and had a lot of 800+ series....He basically was a "star" which definitely was not his personality = he is a humble, kind and well-mannered man....this comes from everyone who meets him, but as his mom I definitely agree!...Once again, my thanks to all of you and God Bless!