Today I pushed myself into church to light a candle and prayer for her, but could not manage to stay for mass as my body started to reel from the reality of it all. I live in NM and she in NY. Due to limited finances as well as other factors concerning my mental health have chosen to grieve from afar, but that does not mean I am not grieving the loss. Your kind words have touched my heart and thank you for your kindness🙏🏼😢❤️