thisismarilynb. I like your message. It's sensible and uplifting. You call yourself a survivor. You are that, that's for sure. But you are also a "Warrior". I'm very sorry for your loss. Perhaps you can find an advocacy group in your area that helps people through the loss of loved ones. Is there a senior center near you? You seem to have a youthful spirit. I'm sure you can find others who would love to sit and chat with you over a cup of black tea. Many blessings to you from above. CB