Brain fog has been the one [of countless] long covid symptoms that has remained the most persistent, prevelent and dibilitating since [overnight, hit-by-a-mack-truck] symptom onset 9/11/2020. 4 years this September.

Having been a career bookkeeper, besides making multiple costly errors in the books of our personal business, I have been reduced to someone who can no longer do any mental math - for example, being unable to answer one of YouTubeKids’ app’s parental control questions just a couple weeks ago, “What is 9x7”. I did, however, wake up the next morning thinking of a plan how to solve the equation without paper or calculator. So, not impossible 😛 I cannot have adult conversation because I am incessantly ‘searching for the right words’, or names, or titles, or … that constantly elude me. It takes 45 minutes to an hour to read through an article. If the article is longer than ~10 paragraphs, I find my mind reading it as, “blah, blah, blah”. Reading a novel can take me months. I charge into rooms with intention just to stand there wondering why I’m there, having forgotten what I was doing. I’m advised to ‘write things down’. Very difficult to do when the thought, task, or appointment/event I needed to write down is gone before I can ever find paper and pen, electronic device, or calendar. I could go on, but I’m sure most of you here know the drill. And like I said, this is only one of multiple symptoms…

I have been to a plethora of doctors, some kind and sympathetic - others condescending, and had the gamut of tests done just to be told, “Everything looks normal.” I have been fortunate to have a local COVID Recovery Cliinic. They are trying. Although I have been avoiding because of cost, I am having my first brain MRI June 10. I am also scheduled for five weeks of Speech Therapy.

I love God and am comforted by hope and faith that has come in knowing God. This whole experience has drawn me closer to the Lord and I know I am being faithfully kept and carried in loving Hands. “Who am I that you are mindful of me or the [children] of [hu]man[ity] that you care for us?” Not sure I can answer that, but I know without doubt our Lord is and does. So I lean not on my understanding, but God’s. That is good enough for me. I pray for us all who are suffering that we may find contentment and peace in all of life’s circumstances and true healing of heart, soul, mind, and body that comes only from God by grace through his Son, our Savior, Jesus Christ.