i went to all chemo ,treatments , 6 months , on my own . i couldn't deal with being there for my son or his emotions . his father had died from cancer when he was nine . so for me to get it was his first nightmare even tho he was 30 . i had to be strong for him, as he was suffering so much . i always looked good, makeup hair etc when i saw him, always up beat . the hardest thing about it all was telling him . my worst fear was his reaction . i could deal with my problem but not his suffering , he was devastated . . i came to enjoy my time getting chemo as it was all about me and getting care . and being the one looked after . today 7 months on , after mastectomy and radiation , i feel exhausted . but strong . it's surprising what the body and mind can go thru. the thought of it is ten times worse .
my son is still on watch but iv normalised it as much as i can , unfortunately it's part of their life now and you can't change that . no matter what you do . but know they are as resilient as you ! and it will soon be in your past ! and his .