I will be 90 years old in September. How do I deal with aging? For starters I am not going to buy green bananas. I am kind of surprised that I have lived so long. I have been a widow for almost three years. These have been the worst years of my life and yet I am still kind of going on. I am able to live independently and can drive myself anywhere I need to go. I am relatively healthy. I don't have dementia. I have some rotor cuff problems and I am getting physical therapy. So far I have no illnesses and no chronic pain. I know I am extremely fortunate. But I did do many years of racewalking even while I had a full-time job and was raising a family. When I retired at age 67, I continued to walk. I do not smoke and drink very little. I try to eat a healthy diet and I guess it has paid off. But I really miss my husband and do not have much desire to go on much longer.