This is difficult. Since arriving home from the hospital, nothing feels the same. I'm in discomfort, frustrated that I can't do things, or move the way I want, or leave the house. It's all had an effect on my emotional health. I'm going through many tearful days and nights wondering how long will this last? Doing a lot of reading up on spinal fusion and seeing that thi surgery doesn't work for everyone, and wondering if I will be one of the patients who is left still in pain 3-6 months down the line.