Iam sorry to hear what you are going through as well! I know its not easy to live in pain daily especially when its also affecting your sleep, makes you irritable and just anxious, and I understand you with being tired of surgeries it takes a lot out of you and you have your babies at home which must be a great comfort, I just have such an issue with posterior hardware, I'm fused posterior C2-C7 and I cant even look at my feet or stomach anymore and I'm two years post op that surgery, but I know everyone has a different situations, if you don't mind me asking, did they offer you home nurse for the beginning after surgery?