I wish you all the best with this going forward. Your post made sense to me. I'm 70, ended breast cancer treatment a year ago. But I've been disabled since I was very ill at the age of 21. I have difficulty walking, and more. Although I've led a pretty adventurous life I also live with fear--what if I can't walk/drive when I need to, etc. My husband was here for me during treatment, but even though the treatment was not grueling I very much doubt I could have managed on my own, particularly food and errands. I actually considered a stint in assisted living at that point, and certainly would have done it if I was on my own. It gives support which in turn gives you some good options as to how to get through the day. Sending you all my best. If you feel like it, give us an update when you know more.