I totally understand the fear of what may be found out from the scan. We all have that ongoing anxiety.
Often times this is one of the scariest phases. It is new and scary and you don’t know anything about the disease yet or what sort of treatments may lie ahead. It’s all a big unknown.
However, if it is confirmed as a net, you’ll be in a position to take control of it. These days with a good net specialist this disease can be treated as a chronic condition for many many years, if not forever. My husband is coming up on 16 years since diagnosis and likely many years longer than that prior to diagnosis.
While you wait through the testing, please find someone to confide in. It is a very stressful situation and not only do you need the emotional support, reducing the stress is always better for your physical well being too.
Personally, my husband has found significant stress relief not only through being able to confide in me and dear friends, but mainly through his faith and trust in God.
I pray that the scan is negative and that you find the answers quickly.