Please don't tell yourself that you don't count, you do count, you are just reacting to your surroundings which do not sound very pleasant... maybe you need to go out on your own if that is something you can afford, go out and sit in the sun as much as you can, it does help the mood anyd walk, walk, and walk some more, if you are agoraphobic or find it hard to go out, drive to a lake or a nice walking park, that you can enjoy peace and quiet, just listen to the sounds of nature, it is better then any antidepressant, you have to force youself though and that is the hard part, but once you do this, you will look forward to your daily walk. If I had to listen to rants al day long I would feel the same way. Do you have a therapist ? I had severe panic/anxiety issues yrs ago and a Psychiatrist helped me the most rather the a therapist, he did put me on an age old drug back then which worked wonders for my agoraphobis ( had that for a short time) it is called Disiprimine, old drug but I swear that gave me my life back and visits with him. I wass on that for about 15 yrs. then i decided to ween myself off of it and see what happens and I was fine, I do get depressive periods and really have to push myself , at times i wished I had continued the med but I am ok , once I am out, I have heart issues now so that makes me tired 🙁 i am much older than you are, i only wish I were your age again, you are way too young to feel this way about life, but not too young to do something about it. Make goals, like if at all possible, get your own place for peace of mind, do the things i mentioned to see it that might help but above all, we care .