Yeah, going cold turkey was miserable. The brain zaps were brutal. At first I was unsure if I'd stick to it, but when I started digging into the topic to see what I was in for quitting, I stumbled on the study. It was on PubMed, so definitely legitimate and peer reviewed. That's when I became determined to ride it out. And like I said, the changes were almost immediately apparent. It's been the single best thing I've done since I landed in the hospital last year, very suicidal, and got diagnosed.

I will stress, mine is a study sample of exactly one person, and it is filled with a lot of bias on my part, so it doesn't mean the same would happen to you or anyone else. I'm just offering up my story hoping you consult your doctor carefully and make the right decision. It could very well work for you, it does for many people. But according to the study, there is a small but statistically significant number of patients who flip like I did. I don't want that to happen to you. If you do go back on it, definitely pay attention to your mood swings, and if you find yourself headed downward, let your doctor know. That's something I didn't do until after I quit.

This is a really good tool for tracking your moods. I've recommended it elsewhere. It's been a huge help for me. It gives you a data base to see if there were any triggers you missed before stumbling into the depressive cycle. I've got several months of info now, I've been taking daily notes on top of tracking sleep and emotions, and the last time I went down, I had a record of the days leading up to it. Things I would have forgotten if I hadn't kept them logged with notes. So there was a broader context to the incident than I'd had before. Since then it's helped me really pay attention in ways I previously hadn't.
https://insights.emoodtracker.com/login