I saw someone else say, "All this advice from people who don't know what it's like." They're right. Anyone who gives your advice and says you need to be positive...they think they can imagine what it's like for you, but they're just full of good intentions. I also don't want to live another day, or hear that I should call 988, or talk to my doctor about it. You feel this way because you have tried it all. Even hope can be too hard to manage. Thank you for being honest, and not using humor or false hope to make it easier to swallow.