Hello to all

Well, it’s midweek and I awoke this morning in a state of fear and dread…Everyday seems the same now…I am constantly worried about my wife’s medical conditions and the lack of Quality Care that she’s receiving…her nephrologist has blown it on a couple of occasions with looking at the wrong lab results given to him, he has prescribed combination meds to help her kidneys because of her BP…all of these meds in combination were immediately questioned by the pharmacist and they called his office….etc…these are serious mistakes…the wrong dated labs, then the cardiology department not getting back to her on a 14 day monitor that she wore and is still symptomatic…I can’t wait until the 7th of May when we go up to Ft Belvoir Hospital to her cardiology and dermatology appointments…a couple of weeks ago we were hoping for a summer little cruise to Bermuda and maybe 🤔 in September a group of seniors trip to Ireland…but May 7 comes first…I can no longer convince my wife to go to the ER or hospital stay, and after the last time in both places , I can’t blame her….my AA meetings are no help…when I try to even just mention some of my worries about my situation and how my anxiety is causing problems with serenity, I get the usual have you prayed about it, are you doing the steps, have you turned it over…!! I am praying that all is well and still have hope that these are situations that can and will be resolved…but it’s heck on the old nerves 😟 and mental wellness….so I come here to write my thoughts and prayers and fears and hopes…there’s an old part of ‘the Rime of the Ancient Mariner’ that goes “like one who on a lonesome road does walk in fear and dread, because he knows a frightful fiend does close behind him tread”…. I am having coffee now, then I’ll get going and say a short prayer for anxiety to be replaced with serenity and that all will be well..to all who come here have a safe peaceful day and night..
🙏pvctom