Everyone is put on this earth for a reason and you’re also one of them. Some people just aren’t cut out for academic study and the pressure these days is really intense. Perhaps you would find more joy in some other walk of life such as working with animals or elderly people? It’s your life and you shouldn’t have to do things to please your parents at your age. It’s not worth killing yourself over, that’s for sure. A therapist could probably help you work your way through this. It would be worth it if it helps you find joy in your life! Good luck to you.