Oh thank you so much . I am getting a more positive feel with all your responses. Love the part about girls looking good . I met with the plastic surgeon today . He is like the 4th I’ve met . The others didn’t seem too sure about working on me since my bmi is rather high. I finally have one who has done thousands of surgeries and he just said to me with the most reassuring voice “you just fight the cancer , don’t worry about how you will look. It’s my job to make sure you love how you look after “ . Suddenly it all seemed so real .