That it is a huge and unfair burden for you to bear alone, @sradeb. I'm glad that this forum can provide feedback and some support. I hope that you are seeing or will consider speaking wth someone who will support you, like a social worker, counsellor, chaplain, etc. These services are often available for caregivers at cancer centers. Do you have access to caregiver supports or to speak with someone about your caregiver experience?