WOW WOW WOW!!!! I don't know what to even say!! I had the one surgery and was lucky enough to have a Dr. that did vbut spinal surgery and he knew his stuff. I don't know where you live or what else is available to you but it sounds like somebody and done a terrible job trying to fix you. I'm no Dr. so just my opinion, but I will say that I waited almost too long to have my surgery and was so fortunate that I got it done so well. I also had my daughter and son in law that were completely committed to my aftercare. I am sure you have PTSD and you are not even close to being fixed. My heart goes out to you!!!