@sarah852 If your experiences were anything but "typical", and who is to say the definition of that! then you might need help more geared towards your particular issues. It can really take a lot of time and effort to address deep-seated things, and return to emotional/mental well-being. And first we need to understand how it might be affecting our daily life, and have that desire to make a true and long-lasting change. It can take a lot of soul-searching, a lot of effort, many tears, some "what did I get myself into here!?" moments. But in the end, after so much work is done, you'll reclaim who you are. Trust me, so many of us have been-there-done-that. What works for one may not work for the next person. Keep plugging away to find the best route for you to take. I'm glad you came here to post this question, and hope reading what others have to say will help you decide to try some different methods to address your issues as you have them.
Ginger