I just read your essay and identify with it for several reasons: I am now 87, my husband is gone, and I am a retired teacher! I had a stroke a year ago; survived and now live alone,with help of a daughter and son-in-law. I can no longer drive: my choice since my right foot and hand are not quite normal. Since I live in a very rural part of the Ozarks (and love it here!), I am alone most of the time. I spend my time reading, doing puzzles, staying in contact online, taking care of myself and my home.
As you said, I can still make my own decisions with my doctor's help. I consider myself lucky to still be able to live in my own home.I feel gratitude is an important feeling for me!