Sorry for such a long story that I just wrote. Things got extremely complicated and sometimes it is hard to explain everything in just a few words.

Believe it or not, my rheumatologist praised me for being "concise" and "a man of few words." I didn't share so much with her but we got along extremely well because of that. She would say I asked pertinent questions except she couldn't answer my questions most of the time. I appreciated her honesty and I never felt gaslighted.