Jclassey
I know how frustrating it is and what you are experiencing having been there just weeks ago. J believe I have finally turned a corner. That awful throat pain after trying to eat would be me to tears and bouts of anxiety and depression. I am now over 14 weeks post radiation and on very day of 14 weeks I finally had a day where I did not need the feeding tube. (I too caught Covid just after Christmas which was a setback.) Yesterday was day 2 where I got by without feeding tube and I pray to god i am hopefully done. My throat is not perfect still sore here and there and eating does aggravate it especially anything coarse. I do still need lots of water to get to swallow because of dryness.
I hope you get there soon. My only advise is eat very soft foods and try to be patient by keeping busy if you can. For me daily walks, light exercise and home projects were key to filling my time.