I live in a 55+ community so there are plenty of clubs to join to match your interests. But I am not good at meeting people and a lot of things are in the evening. Even though I live in a gated community and the drive would be minimal, I just can't bring myself to do it. I have a housekeeper who comes every three weeks to clean. I do everything else by myself. I have had some grief counselling. But we were together for such a long time. We dated (in those days you didn't sleep together) for 3 years and were married for 59 years. That's 62 years of my life. When he died a lot of me died as well. Right now I just do what I have to do and spend the rest of the time quietly in my house. Will it ever get better? Who knows. Right now it is what it is.