@dfb What can you create in your safe space that would mimic the gym, for you? Walking/jogging in the neighborhood? Using a mini-rebounder? Lifting gallon jugs in various fill levels to take the place of weights? Calisthenics? Perhaps you can do this while your anxiety is preventing you from getting to some of the places you want to go to?
Ginger

Thank you. Weaned off of benzos and had tremendous withdrawal, what they call PAWS. Took FOUR years AFTER weaning down to nearly nothing. FOUR YEARS until the constant anxiety finally ebbed. Still have the internal tremors. Cortisol used to practically throw me out of bed, or anytime I would fall asleep. So NEVER slept during the day it was so awful to wake up with adrenaline coursing through my body. Anxiety through the roof, same as yours. Things that helped. Darth Vader breathing (engages parasympathetic nervous system vagus nerve) and magnesium to sleep. Someone on the Benzo boards recommended those. Clean eating. NO preservatives, etc. One day at a time, you can do this. Sending you light and hope. 🙏🏻