@cosette2024 As you can see by the other posts here, you are certainly not alone in feeling anxiety!

As we get older, and face it, we cannot escape that! there are things we can no longer do as well, or at all. It is part of the big scheme of things. Do I grieve those things I cannot accomplish anymore? Well, yes, definitely. If possible, I try to modify and accommodate to continue doing those things to some degree, before giving up completely on it. And sometimes, finding a replacement for those things can be an exciting adventure!

Thinking about your son and what will happen to him. Looking at the possibilities, are there family members who will be able to step in and assist him? Are there funds set aside to help him out? Have you looked at long term care for him when you are no longer able to? Taking those needed steps now will ease your mind, I bet.

You can do your best to think ahead and prepare yourself for eventualities. Remember they sometimes turn out differently, though. I'm not saying it is easy, because it isn't always so. I had to learn to be forgiving of myself, and be flexible [boy, that was difficult!]. Did my wildest dreams 10 years ago ever imagine where I would be now? Absolutely not. But I had to believe that it would turn out as good as I could get it to be by hard work and dealing with the little details as they came up. And you can, too.
Ginger