We’re all in this together! My mom was disappointed in me on so many occasions. I made choices she didn’t like, and some were not good for me either, but I was just doing the best I could at the time. Big mistakes happen.

I turned out pretty good, anyway. I’ve made accomplishments I’m proud of. Don’t let the disappointments of the past determine your future. If your mom is disappointed it’s because she wants the best for you. So you know that - she wants the best for you!
I think she be happy (eventually) that you sought treatment, that you wanted her to be part of the solution, and you know better for the future.

I’d say some of my worst mess-ups are what helped me be a much better me now!
Wishing you the best!