definitely @twinkie23 have felt this way before but I had to rely on my faith (Christ) to steer me back, and quickly, because that was a dark place that I'm not willing to sit, stand, or even lie in. I pray that you do find your faith (whatever that looks like). This is no cliche nor story tail! It was at my lowest point, I find strength to strive, to believe when believing is/was hard. You could have Lupus & MS. I'm the type that would rather know than wish I had known (once I'm at the end of my life). Bless You. Love your way~