All I can add is that I understand how this illness can overwhelm you. It has drastically changed my life. I also experience terrible anxiety. I have taken to meditation, and prayer, and I find that to go outside, and walk, walk walk, and breathe in the fresh air and amaze myself at the God given beauty all around me. If the weather is too bad, I will walk in other places. Exercise, meditation, and prayer are my way of working out my anxiety. I wish you the best .Good for you for reaching out.