Dear @nemo1, I am happy you feel welcome and free to ask questions or vent. It's very important to do so!
You know, I was "YOU" not so long ago! I can assure you that most of us understand. Sure, you don't have a diagnosis yet, but the fear of the "C" word is there. The memories of what your mom went through are there, too. What you are experiencing is perfectly normal.
Trying some meditation, relaxation exercises, walking, or talking to someone are all useful techniques to try to keep anxiety at bay. However, I believe the first step is to give yourself "permission" to feel anxious and concerned. You have all the right to feel that way.
Once you do, you may feel freer to address those emotions in other ways, such as reading, doing some meditation, or going for a walk. Don't be hard on yourself.
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I have noticed there is some significant history of breast cancer in your family. Any other types of cancers? And you? Has anyone in your family been genetically tested? I don't mean using 23&me, but genetic tests that would investigate the presence of Hereditary Genetic Variants potentially tied to cancers.
You mention your liver. Is there a problem?
About going to the hospital, that was more convenient - You certainly were not expecting to receive these findings. It made perfect sense to go there. How far are you from the main hospital? Going forward, perhaps you may want to use the Main hospital campus, regardless of the diagnosis you will receive this time.
Keep on chatting with us!
HUGS!!
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My mom had a rare cancer. I have the specifics written down, where I’m not sure… I don’t know what type breast cancer my grandmother and g. Grandmother had, only that they had and survived it. No other cancers in the family that I am aware of. None in me. A surgeon a number of years ago suggested I go for the testing. He assumed I had insurance coverage for it. I never did.
I have a genetic liver disease. Alpha 1 anti-tripsin deficiency. So, I have a very fatty liver. I am to have MRI’s every year looking for liver cancer and any other problems, a special ultrasound routinely. I have a hepatologist who is following me. I’m due for the ultrasound and a follow up.
My blood tests are also done to monitor it.
So, with all that, I know if anything happens whatever therapy I would need would have to be cleared by the hepatologist. I’m concerned about the liver. Can’t live with cancer and cant live without the liver.
So, I’m sorry for writing so much about the liver, but it’s also a worry.
Oh yes. If I need anything done beyond biopsy it will be at main hospital. If it were like my moms cancer, I’d consider going to her doctor. He was wonderful.
I’m getting ahead of myself (as usual). I really appreciate your support and understanding.
Thanks for the valuable insights and suggestions.