Henry, you have the right attitude. I am on a similar path as you. I'm a 4+ year survivor of stage 4 squamous cell esophageal carcinoma.

We've walked throught the valley of the shadow of death and have emerged a bit bloodied but unbowed. Give thanks to your medical team and your creator for the blessings they've bestowed upon you.

You have the right attitude. You embraced the "suck" and owned your disease, you haven't allow it to own you. You are making the most of the extra time granted to you. You have embraced two of the fundamental tenets of Stoicism, namely, memento mori (remember we all die) and as that is inescapable, amor fati (love your fate). You realize that much of life is beyond our control. Spending your remaining time worrying about your woes of today only steals from the promise of tomorrow.

I hope you continue to be well and that your upcoming scans show NED. Be strong and carry on.