Mike, I have been on this particular anti-depressant for over a year now. I still have days where I think I just don't want to be here anymore...I was really hoping the anti-depressant would eliminate that feeling. I just don't enjoy doing much of anything anymore and I feel like I just get throughevery day so I can do what I enjoy the most ... sleep (when I actually CAN sleep) or just rest and do nothing because I'm so tired of feeling so "blah" about everything. I just keep thinking ...what happened to me?... And what have I become and how do I change it? I know the way I feel is not normal or healthy...one should not wish for the end to one's own life, but I find I often do wish that for myself. 🙁