Life is change and if we don’t change with it, and accept it we end up miserable.
Grief is ongoing and it doesn’t soften with time as some people think.
It’s interesting to me that you seem unapproachable even in your introduction. For instance subtly putting down the women you live near, as not as worldly and intellectual as you. We all are human, I’m sure there are mutual topics that can be shared.
I’m not speaking off the cuff, in my younger years I was very well off financially. I have a IQ that would get me in Mensa . Then life happened….
2 of my 4 children were born with rare chromosomal diseases. Divorce left me penniless. My health problems have me in chronic pain, with mobility so bad I can barely take care of myself.
Now I reside in government housing, live on less then $13,000 a year, in a rural area with zero activities.
I don’t think I’m better than my neighbors. I’ve found new ways to entertain myself. I’ll probably outlive the 2 children I mentioned. But I did the best I could for them medically.
If one doesn’t roll with the punches so to speak, and accept that things will change for bad and good, it will be Hell.