I think that is an excellent practice! Counting our blessings instead of focusing on our fears! I am so sorry for your loss! You have have a lot to deal with, with the loss of 5 friends! May you take time to grieve your losses. I think it is the uncertainty and that we have no control is the hardest thing. That ultimately God is in control of our circumstances and our future. At least that is what I believe! May you find peace and rest in Him.