I had a deceased donor kidney transplant in December. Initially I had not even the ambition to read, but now I am back to escaping in fiction books, movies,TV. I really need to escape. My husband died in July of cancer at age 59. We were devoted to each other and it is devastating. It is hard to sort out my post-transplant feelings vs. dealing with grief and missing him. Also my exhaustion–related to the transplant or to grief and the endless work of settling the estate of your beloved? I certainly note changes in thought patterns, work ambition, etc. but again it is hard to sort out. I’m so grateful for successful transplant, but this is a painful path.