Thank you Jim for the “sermon” I was and still am at peace with losing mom. I know where she is and I was with her when she passed.
It was a relief as I know she was very lonely and wanted her family near. She wanted to leave and there was no reason to stay on earth Long story. (My sister went with me to Baltimore this week for the doc visit via 10 hour AMTRAK she talked about mom a lot
which accounts for my thoughts of mom. I am o.k. with her absence…..there are just those times.
I took the news of my cancer diagnosis really well last February, everyone was rather taken back at my peace., this is the fist time I heard in my spirit before the diagnosis call that it was cancer, which prepared me for the news,
I have suffered bravely with this and told mom that God would give me the grace to walk through this if He didn’t heal me as mom prayed some times all night for my healing, I had been to doctors for three years and it could have been taken care of by specialists that just didn’t take the time, received poor medical care.
My family, knowledgeable in the system believe that I received such fragmented poor medical care by the same medical system that ended up doing the surgery from Hell, for lack of having another option. The issue is with the hospital (not the surgeon) know to be the worse after care in the country by U S News and World Report & World Report. (I agrees with their findings)
I praise God for the doctor specialist I saw this week, should have seen a long time ago, but lets not go there.
I agree 100% with your “sermon” . All of this peace was present before my last surgery (one year ago April 6)
The surgery was bad enough but the sewing a lump of burlap to my tongue for the flap to my severly swollen tongue
(blocking my air way.) appears to be rather primitive, 3rd world country medicine. NOW TALKING ABOUT DOING THIS AGAIN ! ! !
When I was told I would be sipping ice myself, as the doctor was stern “Doing this yourself”
and then the hospital had no “ice chips” something that simple which created many complications
in the night and steroid and possible airway tube, etc. all for lack of ice chips.
Is this the medical care across the country now as this country is in moral …decay””.
I can’t seem to get back on track which is a poor way to express it.
Touch, I live alone. Spiritual what has happened to me, where is my faith. Music worn that out.
The surgery was trauma and then
coming home on Morphine bottles and trying to think clearly on three pain killers plus the morphine.
and to tell me that I would need another surgery.
This is a bunch of Blah blah blah that I am writing so please forgive me. I am overwhelmed at times but dont
fall apart. The crying that came some length of time month or so after surgery was I learned from the meds.
I don’t have the crying now. I just stated that death would be better than to go through that surgery again.