I have had 14 loss-of-conscious concussions throughout my active life, 6 of which occurred during my senior year in college over a five month period. I have experienced most every symptom associated with TBIs except balance issues (uncontrollable rage, lack of focus, headaches, memory loss, light sensitivity, anxiety, ringing in ears, depression, etc).
It took about four years of experiencing issues before I reached out for any help. My first experience with the medical profession was not what I had hoped but in all fairness I did not follow up on their advice. I was just asked recently why I have not sought follow up care and I could not explain it to someone who has not experienced the inability to get out of bed, flash-rage towards everything and everyone.,,simply “white-knuckling” every second of the day. The associated shame, guilt and fear are overwhelming and effect every aspect of my life.
I am still here today because of:
My faith kept me alive until I was able to get on the right medication. The medication put me in a place where I could begin to heal. My faith is changing my rage into love and my other sysmptoms seem to be fading.
I believe you can only heal to the level of what you believe in. If you believe in yourself, you will only heal to the level you believe you can. This is where I think the medical profession fails.
Whatever you believe in, grasp onto it and live it…eliminate the battles in your brain. I believe the fancy medical name of it is congestive dissonance.
BTW- if a doctor tells you “it is only in your mind”, run. He/she can’t help you. Just my POV.