I am bipolar so know what you are going through. I am on medication as well. I am 65. For the most part I have been stable for the past couple of years. I am also an alcoholic. I see a psychologist twice a week and my psychiatrist every six weeks. I also go to a group called Dual Recovery Anonymous (DRA) To join you need to be an alcoholic or drug addiction or a compulsive Overeater plus a mental disorder such as you have, depression or bipolar like myself. The group helps. Just like diabetis like I have people can learn to manage their psychiatric illness. Does not mean I won't have symptoms once in awhile but if I talk about the symptoms and share with my doctors I can get through it. You can do it also. I Don't know how this works but if you are able to send me a message contact me anytime. I am in Illinois.