Hi, my name is Vickie, I under went Breast Cancer in ’07 and again in ’11. Actually I was like I another world, hearing what the doctor said and what she wanted to do. I thought I understood, looking back on it the first time I was too dazed to comprehend anything. It is probably what you are feeling. Give yourself time to process it all. Check out support groups which will give you all types of answers. You will see that you are not alone.