I think I can relate to what you’re describing. I too am finding more comfort in alcohol these days. The loss of my parents in 2002, and most recently my oldest son, has definitely taken my drinking from “social” to “crutch”. I’ve just recently started to realize that I may be started on a downward spiral. I’m pretty sure that if alcohol is used to ease emotional pain, it’s a problem. It’s obviously not the healthiest way to deal with our pain, and because it’s so addicting can very quickly lead to an addiction issue. I would suggest that if you’re questioning whether or not you need help, it’s time to seek out a professional who can assess your situation. Best wishes to you…..hopefully we’ll both make the right choice.