I want to share a few lines of a favorite song of mine with you that I hope will be an inspiration to you in this heart-wrenching grief and pain you are going through.
God will make a way when there seems to be no way
He works in ways we do not see,
He will make a way for me,
He will be my guide, hold me closely to his side
With grace and strength for each new day. He will make a way!
I do not have experience with hypnosis and do not have a history of violent behavior with my DID. However I lived with my mother who has had DID all her life(she doesn’t know that’s what she has) and I know all too well the trauma of her yelling and screaming and throwing things. I beleive it was my Dad that kept her from getting worse than that with her behavior. And yes DID is the same as Multiple personality disorder.
God is healing me of my painfull memories with my Mom and of my DID and I give him the credit for leading me to kind counselors in my life who walked me through it.
Right now, I am thinking you should focas on getting healing for yourself. And by all means don’t blame yourself for anything!! You needs heaps of love and people to surround you who will not be judgmental. Most important – Jesus loves you so much and wants a relationship with you!! Hang in there!! I am here whenever you want to vent or any questions you may have.