Hang in there, it will be better to think positive, but I am sure everyone tells you that. Coming from another facing death I think it means alittle more cause they understand where you are coming from. Please try to stay positive and your single too like me huh… that part sucks too in the alone times, night and morning like you said. Other times there is other people, the tv, music, whatever that will keep you busy but its that time when you have to lay there with your thoughts are the times that you wish it would just all end. Not a nice thought. I wish you the best my friend!!!