@jmjlove , can can certainly relate until my late 40s I continue doing what I wanted to despite the pain, I was going to let it stop me. Then something changed with what my body was going thru , I suddenly started putting on weight despite no diet change ,began to have balance issues ,would just stumble and fall, trouble walking stairs. I lost confidence in my body abilities. The less mobile I was the more pain and weight gain. Vicious circle had begin. My anxiety got worse to the point I was scared to drive at times . I became a shut in spending most my time in my room . The few friends I had drifted away I don't have many family members left. I've found myself lonely with little support. Feeling pretty much alone in this world. Things changed so fast and so drastically for me there was no time to adjust or learn coping stills. I feel like I'm live in someone else's body, this can be me but then I look in the mirror and can't believe the image I see. I feel pure disgust with myself. The meds I been put on plus hypothyroidism make losing wait a challenge but im trying hard to shed some lbs, but it's slow…extra weit means extra pain of course, and worry has made my anxiety un controllable. I try to take one day at a time , but patientous is not my strong suit.