Yes, I feel like I am constantly bombarded with triggers. I lost my mom 3 years ago to lung cancer after almost a 2 year battle. My father was diagnosed this past year with small cell bladder cancer. The trips to the hospital, chemo treatments, and constant scans… I find myself breaking down all the time. There are little reminders all the time of what I went through and I am so afraid of the outcome. This is the first I have heard the term anticipatory grief and that perfectly explains what I am feeling.