Hi, I can definitely relate. I too suffer from pain. I think and look at a picture of me on front stairs..about a year and a half ago. I looked nice, photo was on Facebook..I was on pain meds for severe degenerative back disease from fall off horse at horse show at the age of 21. I'm now 56..was on pain meds for a very long time..too long along with trigger point injections, steroid shots, but at that time, the shots and muscle relaxers worked great. I had the horrible constipation that pain meds are notorious for causing, but at that time I was younger, had a social life, outgoing..then I had a stupid idea to go cold turkey off pain meds. Never should have done that. My digestive system has been ruined, now I am coping with even more debilitating constipation..I live on stool softeners and a stimulant laxative every Sunday just so I can flush. I have lost over 100 pounds, and I don't even look like the same person I no longer have any quality of life due to IBS, cramping with even the smallest meal..weekly laxative use..my life revolves around my bowels and just feeling lousy. Nothing seems to work..fiber, Probiotics, etc only makes things worse. All tests seem to be okay. I get "dismissed" by uncaring gastroenterologists, constant trips to ER for impaction..when I to in, severly constipated and crying, at my wits end, nurses and ER doctors roll their eyes at me
. I have no family left, no significant other..my friends all have given up on me, as I had to always cancel plans to to IBS. Since my constipation is chronic and severe even on stool softeners, I have to "strain" and now from that, my right shoulder is so painful. I have no idea what kind of Doctor to see for my right shoulder pain. I too think about my time in Maui back in 1995. How happy I was, I was working at a job I enjoyed, Maui was so beautiful and romantic. Living in Seattle at that time, had met a man and was falling for him. Feeling so happy and in love, euphoric in Maui. Now I sit here, alone, no friends. Missing my cats, and knowing tomorrow I will be on the toilet all day, in pain from a harsh stimulant laxative. This has been my life now going on six years. The good news, I am no longer loosing weight..have gained 4 lbs, so may not have to be put on a feeding tube after all..yet my life that was, is no more.